crystaldiamante

We were laying backwards on the bed, heads where our feet should be.  My forehead touched his; it was cool and damp.  His past unfolded before me, laid out in awkward honesty.  We asked each other again what this is, who we are--we used words like “boyfriend and girlfriend,” the words that almost made us blush.  He told me that the second time we met, the second show I went to, he brought a girlfriend there and divided his time between the two of us.  I told him about flirting with the bassist from Pale Blue Dot that night and still being in a serious relationship with Steven.  Sometimes we laughed and sometimes I was uncomfortable, but his arms were always around me.  He was always grabbing me and squeezing me to his chest.  He kissed my eyebrows and then licked my surgery scar.  He rested his cheek against my belly and listened to the sounds that my body made inside.  I cupped my hands on the top of his head and couldn’t close my eyes

This time he didn’t play any songs, but I don’t mind because I have the recording of the song he wrote for me called “I Can’t Sleep.”  He wrote it in the middle of the night and sent me the mp3 in the morning so that I could wake up to it.  It almost made me cry.  I hope he’s still working on the second song because I think it’s just as nice.  I loved it from the first time he played it because of the lyrics about eating chocolate for breakfast and the line, “I stare into your eyes, and you’re staring at my jeans it seems.”  True events inspire the best music.

Tuesday made it to the city of angels, leaving with nothing and gaining everything as needed.  Sunday I got a text I didn’t expect: “tuesday & I are sitting @ the rainbow thinking of ways 2 get u 2 LA!”  In my mind I fell off the barstool, but in reality I smiled and texted back.  Two thousand miles from here, April and tuesday look like gold to me.  I imagine the two blue jean babies watching the sun set behind the Hollywood sign.  Of course I don’t even know if the sun sets in that direction.

I said to Keith I want to move to Hollywood and he said let’s go.